Sunday, 22 September 2013
.:: Resurrected ::.
Back to donning riding gears and we have rode to KL in mid Jun.
Not enough with the NSH ride, we rode slightly further on early September. The corners & bends of Simpang Pulai & Tapah made our ride to Cameron Highland more interesting.
Our current ride is beyond comparison to FD6S but it has resurrected our passion on touring again.
Till then, more rides to come. Insya Allah...
It is not the ride or the destination that matters but it's the journey and who we are with that makes it worthwhile...
~hayabusa_b@be
Labels: Friends, Ramblings, riding
Tuesday, 1 January 2013
.:: Goodbye 2012 & Hello 2013 ::.
What a way having to end the year by having a bad fall... Haha yup! I missed a step, tripped & thinking I wouldn't fall but nah... Instead landed hard on my forehead!Yes it was at a public place and immediately my forehead swelled up almost like an egg... Argh WTH?! Sungguh tak glamour sak!
Thanks to my long fringe that I managed to cover the 'jendol' till I reached the carpark...
Anyway, 2012 has ended and it was a good year to me... Pretty normal I must say, with ups & downs... Memories formed & lessons learnt..
I hope 2013 will be a better year for me with with lesser freak accidents especially haha!
Labels: Ramblings, Reality Bites
Sunday, 7 October 2012
.:: Right & Wrong ::.
How can something so wrong but yet feel so right at the same time?What is wrong and what is right?
For have I lost my judgement to differentiate on what's wrong and what's right?
Or there's nothing wrong at all for being wrong and right at the same time?
Labels: Ramblings
Tuesday, 14 August 2012
.:: Sick To The Core ::.
The first two weeks of Ramadan was challenging for me. I was sick... Very sick indeed.I had fever, flu & cough. The first batch of antibiotics I refused to take but when I didn't get better, I went to the doctor again. With a stronger dose is medicine and antibiotic, I decided to finish em up. But seems that Klacid was not my kind of antibiotic coz I had diarrhea and hives .
My cough got worse and at one point of time I was breathless when I turned up for work. In less than an hour, I was at the taxi stand escorted by Winnie & Ah Ling. Yes I went home feeling horrible & weak.
For almost two weeks I was missing from office and lying flat on my bed . Coughing uncontrollably and feeling miserable most of the time.
I must say this is one of my worst experience in falling sick after losing a spleen four years back. I have almost zilch own antibodies and my immune system was quite bad. No more Thai blood running through my veins I guess.
And even at this very moment my cough has yet to fully recover and I'm still having a croaky voice! It's tiring having to speak in this croaky manner and having to cough & cough & cough... But Alhamdulillah I know I'm recovering slowly but surely...
After a few years of having a clean full fasting record during Ramadan, this year I have about 10 days waiting to be repaid.... :(
Monday, 7 May 2012
.:: Been A While... ::.
The new layout & dashboard looks kinda alien to me... That shows I haven't been blogging in here for quite a while...Busy is my middle name and that explains my hiatus in here. There was a recent team reshuffling and suddenly my team grew overnight.
On the job training is what I can afford to offer them at the moment. Like today, I felt like getting a queue system for my team members and managers. "Get a number and Yani will attend to your queries!" Grrr....
Welcome to my team as nothing is fixed and like what one of my managers love to quote, "Our job is an art, not a science!"
Cases may seem similar but they are unique on its own... so to the newbies, my advice for them is to be more flexible yet firm when need to and be compassionate... Our aim is to strike a balance.
Enough about work... I'm all excited for our Sabah vacation. A month more to go.... and its been a while we have not gone for any vacation or road trips... Sounded pathetic kan? haiizzz... so not of us... but its okay... June, please come quick!
I realised my past few entries, I kept mentioning about how busy my life with work. Boring old me... where's all the excitement I used to have? Hmmm... nothing much to share nowadays. Unlike those days when there's places to blog about and pictures to post whenever we are having road trips.
My passion has gone kaput. Photography doesn't interest me like I used to. My riding gears are collecting dust in the wardrobe. I guess, everything just died down slowly ever since FD6S has gone.... Sad huh? I hope this is just temporary. Once Bebeh pick up riding again, that lively person in me will be back again.... Insya Allah!
Sunday, 11 March 2012
.:: Update ::.
Hey you! Been a while I've not updated this blog of mine... *Blows the dust and cobwebs around..*Been super busy with work... the usual stuff! Same old shit on different days.... hehe!
There's nothing much happening lately and yes the school break has just begun and we are not going to any short getaways! Can you believe it? Nah, its ok coz we are saving up to go to Sabah in June with the crazy bunch. That's something I'm so looking forward to.
Bebeh has been on shift work for a couple of months already and I'm beginning to get the hang of it. We'd normally try to have time for each other by going on occasional date nights, just catching up over frappuccino or even just snuggling in front of the telly. Marriage needs effort and this is what we have been doing at the moment. There's room for improvement to spend time with each other... But so far, alhamdulillah. When it gets too long being apart and only having to see each other when the other is asleep, it made us appreciate each other even more.
This year, Ilyas is in Primary 4 and he's doing fine in school. Being a prefect for the 2nd year and he is active in the school's rugby team. Frankly, I don't really push him on his studies at the moment. With having to attend Madrasah, tuition & swimming lessons, I think its enough to take up much of his time. He knows that pressure is on him only when its near the exam period where I'd monitor his school work and revisions closely. For now, I want him to have a childhood, a memorable one that is.
As for myself, work of late is getting much under control. Time management is something I'm not good at but I know I can improve in that particular department. Recently, the open appraisal was carried out and I'm quite surprised with my performance rating as I as just promoted last year. I'm thankful that my boss recognizes my efforts at work and hopefully I can do better in the near future.
Well of course, there are times when I experience bad hair days at work but with friends like Juju, B, Cik & Lolita around, they made those days slightly smooth sailing...
:)
Labels: family, Friends, Ilyas, Ramblings, Work
Wednesday, 25 January 2012
.:: Busy Me! ::.
We, humans are creatures of habit. Our minds are always conditioned to accept changes around us.Don't we? Routines do that to me... Talk about routines, it seems that it's becoming a routine for me to be working late frequently.
My head is bogged down with work even when I'm in the shower or when I'm taking a leak in the middle of the night!
Am I getting stressed out or what? And as a result, been having awful breakouts on my face! Dang! Thank God for make up.. Haha!
The few things or people which kept me sane while I'm at work, are some bunch of friends and music from my lappie. Small talks, lunch breaks & tea times with friends in the office helped me ease my mind...
Other than that, calls or messages from external friends also give me a breather...
But the best part is when the office is almost empty, it's always been the music which kept me company. Seems that my brain juice is flowing more productively compared to during office hours.
Howell, hope this busy period is not gonna be forever... *fingers crossed*
Labels: Friends, Ramblings, Reality Bites, Work
Monday, 9 January 2012
.:: Ramblings Of A Working Mom ::.
Work is getting more and more. It's like taking most of my time and the only proper break I have is over the weekends.There are nights where I had to work late to clear stuff. After office hours is the best time to gather my thoughts and clear some paperwork.
Nowadays, I try hard to be home early as Ilyas is schooling in the morning session, especially if Bebeh is in the afternoon shift. Someone gotto check on his schoolwork.
At times, I felt that I'm a terrible mom who can't afford to be there for him, not only for guiding him in his studies but also as a moral support to my only son. There are nights I'm home early but sometimes I'm just too mentally exhausted to do anything except seeking solace in my room.
I'm trying hard to juggle my career and being a mother. I want a balanced life and I hope I'm able to see my son grow up. I don't want to be home when he's already asleep and only had a chance to say "hi" in the morning before he goes to school.
Neither do I want to neglect my career when now I have to prove my worth to my bosses when they had just promoted me last year.
I have faith in myself and I think it's all in setting my priorities straight. On top of that, time management is the essence of a success in a balanced lifestyle.
And I am in pursuit of that essence...
Labels: Ilyas, Ramblings, Work
Sunday, 1 January 2012
.:: Happy New Year! ::.
2011 come and go just like a breeze and may 2012 be a better year for all of us!I haven't been blogging much lately coz was too caught up with work. But managed to spend some quality time with family and friends by going on a road trip to Perak & Penang...
Bebeh has been working in 3 shifts for the past few months. There were lonely nights or days when we only get to see each other but the other is asleep. Sux! But we'll manage... Distance makes the heart grew fonder, remember?
And yes, due to someone's special request, I've changed the songs in my blog.... only this particular person has special request on songs in my blog coz seriously, I doubt there's anyone else who reads this blog of mine! Lol!
People asked me if I got any new year's resolutions and most of the time I don't have any coz I doubt I can fulfill em! ahakz!
But, but... this year I got a simple new year's resolution... easy to achieve but its difficult for me to practice and that is to drink at least 1 litre of water daily! lol.... seriously, I have difficulty in doing so & as a result I've been having loads of breakouts on my face lately....
Day 1 of 2012 is coming close to an end and did I put my resolution to practice? The answer is : NOT YET! hahaha....
Hokay, I'm going to have my litre of water... meanwhile stay tune and hopefully, I'm able to blog again real soon!
Chow peeps!
Labels: Friends, Ramblings, song
Tuesday, 11 October 2011
.:: 6 Years & More To Come ::.
I just realized that it's been 6 years that I have been blogging.Time sure flies and reading some of my past entries made me realized how much I've matured. Yes, I got older & wiser too, I must say (masok bakol, pikol sendiri, nampak?!) Lol!
Anyway, it's always been a joy in blogging my thoughts. A form of de-stressing for me. Something which I've been doing since I was a teenager. Those days, they call it diary, remember? And yes, I still keep my diaries during my secondary school days.
So no worries, peeps as I'm sure there'll be more entries to come in this humble blog of mine... (Haha! Nak step macam ramai peminat aje!)
Yours sincerely,
~hayabusa_babe~
Labels: Ramblings
Tuesday, 4 October 2011
.:: Random Ramblings ::.
Today, I had lunch with Kuniang at ION. One hour of catching up and gossips! I'm glad that she's happy at her current workplace. No worries, as there'll be more of lunch dates with her!This morning, Bebeh messaged me and informed that his shift will start this Friday onwards and for a start, its gonna be his off day. I'm not too sure how things are gonna be once shift work starts full swing. Definitely I'll be seeing less of him and the need for me to be more independent will be more. Feeling a lil skeptical but then again, in the name of a better future. Hey! Don't blame me, hokay coz 11 years we are having a day job and all of a sudden he's working in 3 shifts. Give me time and I'm sure I'll adjust. The pressure would on me to stay focus and on mainstream! LOL! Ssshhhhh!
And talking about this coming Friday, Ilyas is gonna go to Kuantan with my parents for a short getaway. Lucky him as he will be surrounded by his doting grandparents and other relatives while on weekends, Bebeh is working in the morning shift. Guess, its only gonna be me & Bibik at home.... Gawd! Probably will watch some movies online and be a couch potato.
The year end exams are coming for Ilyas and I'm a bit worried. He needs some pushing, nudging & coaching when comes to revising school work. Once he's back from Kuantan trip, there'll be more drilling & grilling for him?! haha! But seriously, I do get the jitters! Sometimes I felt that I didn't push him too hard or I didn't encourage him to study consistently and on top of that many times I would feel like I'm a bad mom who didn't pay much attention to him. Please pardon the ramblings of a distraught mother! Haha!
Lately, I've been going home on time and not working late. So far, I've been able to cope the major bulk of work, although work can never end. There's yet to be any re-shufflement to be carried out after my promotion. The only setback was that my team lost a member when her contract was not renewed due to poor work performance. Other than that, we are coping well, in general.
And of late, I've been laying low on friendship. I take things as it is and treasure those who treasure me. Cik, if you happen to read this entry, I'm saying thanks to you for not giving up on me when at times, I felt like giving up on friendship! I'm having my low moments... hope you understand when I didn't make the first move to sms/call/whatapps you lately. Aku kan sahabat musibat kau! Bear with my nonsense, k and please don't give up on me like how some others would.
Enough of my random ramblings and lemme watch TV, hokay?! Chiow peeps! Till the next entry...
Labels: family, Friends, Ilyas, Ramblings, Work
Monday, 26 September 2011
.:: A Low Moment... ::.
If you are one of my loyal blog readers, you'd notice my yo-yo attitude about friendship. To be frank, I'm currently facing a low moment about the attitude of some of my friends.Some got too caught up about work that I began to drift away them. I'm currently having some bingit issues with this one. Haha! Seems to be too obsessed about finishing work that made them forget to stop and smell the roses.... No matter how hard I try, I can't help them if they are not helping themselves!
While another is doing the disappearing act! No respond via msn or sms. I've done my part and I can't hold on forever... Dunno what went wrong! Hope you'll be back someday...
I told myself previously, I can't hang on too much on friendship... people come and people go whether I like it or not. Definitely it hurts for me but I can't change the way things are, at times...
So, I've gonna put up with my 'I don't give a shit or a damn' attitude and move on with life. They are after all my friends. They will come back eventually. If not... too bad then... Its our losses but its not gonna be the end of the world for me. Its gonna be tough, I'll miss them but then again, do they really give a shit about me?
Hmmm...
If I could turn back time, 2007 is the year I would want to return to. That's the year when I was so carefree and my focus in life was only, my family and riding. Friends were in my picture but was not much of my priority back then.
Oh ya, that would also be the year where I was still having my spleen and no broken bones yet! haha! Hokay, lame joke but then again, back then, I was a much simple person with lil worries about life...
Howell, enough blogging about crappy stuff. Like it or not, I gotto move on and shift my primary focus to my family instead, which reminded me about this funny quote I read somewhere...
"I'd like to thank my family for loving me and taking care of me. And the rest of the world can kiss my ass."
~Johnny Frank Garrett, Sr
Labels: Friends, Ramblings, Reality Bites
Wednesday, 21 September 2011
.:: A Disgrace! ::.
I must say that I'm quite affected with the attitude of a particular supervisor in my unit. He's attitude definitely has tainted my impression upon him even further, as some of us know how sux his attidude could be at times...
If I was the customer, who happens to be from another Ministry, I'd have a negative impression upon my departmart or even my company. Tsk tsk tsk...
Isn't there any protocol in serving customers or at least the decency to wait till your customers leave, irregardless if its beyond your working hours?
Such things, need not have standard protocols but at least, basic working etiquettes!
Labels: Ramblings, Reality Bites
Monday, 19 September 2011
.:: Four Men & A Lady ::.
The Flamboyant OneThe one whom I tried to live without but no matter how hard I tried, I'd ended up going back to square one. Our communication level is a love-hate cum hot & cold kind. But we synchronise easily be it thoughts or opinions. Nobody can understand us except us. So, there's no point explaining further then... :)
Let's just say, our trust for each other is far beyond comparison. He who charms with his flamboyant characters and not many knows the pain beyond his cheeky grins. An upfront facade he has and only few knows the real him.
The Cautious One
He who has yet to find an inch of trust in his heart to share his stories with me. He ponders and he frequently takes a step back, each time his heart opened up a lil bit.
Among all, the one I'm comfortable with and felt free to share my darkest secrets with. Till trust he has, I shall keep mum. For I believe, communication is a two way traffic.
Of late, distance is what I felt. Sadness and frustration I can feel from him. May he find light at the end of the tunnel and for that light maybe an answered prayer for him.
The Philosopher
Almost every conversation with him is mind boggling. He who made me think and be wary of my answers to every of his questions. The one who would awaken the theorist in me.
It is always refreshing when exchanging ideas or point of views with him. We don't really communicate often but when we do, there's no looking back! At times, I'm like a debater, who would listen carefully and would rebut back with my views...
The Biatch
He's the one I would run to when I'm in need to bitch in the office. Be it office gossips or whining on personal matter. He's always there for me in the office.
No matter how trivial my problems or worries are, he'd always offer a shoulder to cry on and a listening ear. Frequently, he would threatened to throw his shoes size 7 at me if I were to lose focus with work!
And above all that, his life problems are more serious than mine....
Today, I realised that I'm lucky to have all four as my friends. They are dear to me and the best part is that, I'm much luckier to have Bebeh as my life partner, a husband and a soulmate as he understands me for being close to each four of them in their special own ways.
So, probabaly I should stop complaining and enjoy life to my fullest coz not every woman is as lucky as me!
:)
Sunday, 11 September 2011
.:: Mobile Blogging ::.
Yoohoo!I'm trying out the new Blogger apps to blog via my handphone...
Test test 123...
I'm ecstatic! So much convenience & less hassle....
Labels: Ramblings
Saturday, 20 August 2011
.:: Sofa ::.
I didn't know that parting with an 11 year old sofa would be hard. I decided to keep part of it in my bedroom.
That sofa has bittersweet memories, I tell ya... haha!
A place where we'd gather family and friends during good times and bad times for the past years. It was our very first sofa we bought when we shifted into our humble abode as a newly wed.
Thank you Lorenzo for designing such simple but yet has a zen look in that fabric sofa of ours.
Labels: Ramblings
Sunday, 7 August 2011
.:: Emo Freak Not Anymore! ::.
The other day I was reading my old rants in the office. Showed how much time has flies and how much I've changed.
And Alhamdulillah its for the better. Much in control of my emotions and my thoughts. Makes me feel how childish I was previously.
Haha! I guess, not really childish... its more of I was an emo freak previously! LOL!
Howell.... those were the days .... and those days wouldn't have mould me to who I am today...
And for that I'm thankful... Syukran!
:)
Labels: Ramblings
Wednesday, 29 June 2011
.:: Missing In Action ::.
Wow! A month I've not blogged & yes many things happened! To summarize, here's what I was up to while missing in action :-~Promotion~
Unexpectedly got promoted! Alhamdulillah syukur but this time it was really something I didn't expect & hoped for. I was planning to happily 'hentak kaki' till I retire... But darn! Promotion = More responsibilities = More work = Some tongues wagged! Yep... tongues were wagging coz probably some of the reasons I could brainstormed was, my gender, my age, my race & probably some wondered if I deserve this new post. Well... what can I say? Its not something I wanted but since I'm entrusted to take up this post, I'll just have to prove my worth. Period!
~Umrah~
Nah, not me who went umrah recently but it was my Papa & brother. They went for 2 weeks and during Papa's absence, been busy visiting Mama almost daily. She had Ilyas & my Bibik to accompany her... So had my dinner quite frequently at parents' crib. At times, bro would post photos of his spiritual visit to the holy land. Browsing through his photos, made me miss Mecca & Madinah. Insya Allah , one day I'll return to the holy land.
~Balik Kampong~
After their return from Umrah, my family had a short getaway. We didn't hesitate much to return back to our self proclaimed kampong, Kuantan. Together with Zul's family, we tried staying at the new hotel, The Zenith Hotel. Nice hotel & cool ambience. There's just something about Kuantan which I can't much explain. Probably, the food, the people, the ambience and the route along the coastal line before Pekan all roll into one to make us & Zul's family dare to self proclaimed it as our Kampong!
~Sick & Hospitalised~
For almost 3 weeks I've been under the weathers. Having flu and a nasty cough which refuse to go away. Earlier this evening, I've gone to the doctor again to get my 3rd round of medications. Hopefully this time it will works. Seperately, when we were having our short break at Kuantan, we were informed that Mama was hospitalised as her feet were swollen and she was slightly breatheless. She's yet to be discharged and its already 11 days she's recuperating at TTSH. Daily visits were made but I get quite frustrated with the strict visiting hours and the quota of visitors. Alhamdulillah, she's made progress and getting better. My fingers are crossed and hoping that she'll be discharged latest by next week.
~Demise~
On the same day we received news that Mama was warded, her younger brother, Ayah Nawi was also admitted at NUH. He has been battling with nose cancer for the past 4 years or so. However, Allah loves him more than any of us and he passed away peacefully on the evening of 23 Jun 2011. His burial was made on the following day and last minute arrangements were made to ensure Mama was granted with home leave to pay her last respect to her brother. Alhamdulillah, everything went smoothly as planned. Ayah, you are greatly missed by all of us. Al-fateha...
~Birthday~
28th of June, somebody turned older... I hope you've turned wiser too , as you get older...although the cheeky & crazy part still existed. As usual, I've got no lavish gifts to lure you like the rest of your 'fan club'... Just a lil prayer, wishing you a lifetime of bliss...
Its already coming to end of June and looking back, it was a hectic month for me... Hopefully, I'm able to get back on track soon...
Miss blogging and having to blog all these events in this post, I feel much relieved.... Phew!
Labels: Birthday, family, Hospital, Ramblings, Sick, trip, Work
Tuesday, 10 May 2011
.:: This Thing Called Friendship ::.
I'm cold-hearted, I'm conceited and I'm stubborn. That's what I've become when I felt my friendship is betrayed, backstabbed & misled one way or another...Other than that if you know me very well, I would have treated you even better than my next of kin and you would mean the world to me. To the extent, I'd do anything for friendship!
I'm not saying that I'm the perfect party in this thing called friendship as I know that there were moments I'm being a self centred bitch!
Yes I'm egoist when things don't go my way but being so buffers me from all the emotional turmoil & hurt. Its better that way. And it doesn't mean moving on makes me forget about our friendship, about you or about us any lesser....
I forgive, its just I don't forget easily! This is the way I handle conflicts! Yes, its harsh!
I realised something over the years about this thing called friendship. Some people when you know the person deeper and closer, you realised what took us so long to find each other as we bonded and clique very very well.
Some, once you knew closer, its ain't worth and it would only be a beautiful relationship of a 'hi-bye' kinda friend. Why do I say so? Coz by knowing closer, it kinda spoil the good impression I have of the person or vice versa! Certainly due to some issues or the true colours have emerged. This is when the magnetic force began to repel.
And of course there's this one person, I love to bits as a close friend. One who'd be there to support me with words of encouragement and one whom I'd laugh at the crazy antics and one who would irritate the hell out of me, once upon a time. But one day, I had to make a painful decision of letting go of a tight bond formed over the years . I felt it was the best thing to do at that moment as our friendship was betrayed. Both of us were the culprits and I quickly need to 'cool things off' before things got off to another level which we both might regret or I might regret forever. A desperate act by staying silent.... till today.
Its painful and there's never been a day I didn't feel guilty and kept questioning myself if I've done the right move. I'm not sure if I'm forgiven or probably I'm already forgotten. But no matter how much guilt I have by keeping mum, its a way of me wanting to save a once beautiful friendship.
I'm not sorry but I miss you terribly! :(
Labels: Friends, Ramblings, Reality Bites
Monday, 25 April 2011
.:: Fiery Flame ::.
This fiery passion is beginning to flicker weakly....What's in the name of passion when we can't experience it, feel it & enjoy it?
I dunno if its time to let go....
Maybe I should...
Age is catching up and probably I should change my focus of interest...
Yeah, change to knitting & sewing? Lol!
Ah crap! Another Monday filled with gazillions PMS hormones, perhaps?
Hokay, ignorge me... probably need some sleep.... but then again, I'm serious about the portion that my used to be fiery passion flickering weakly now....
And it doesn't even need a gust of wind to put off the 'fire'.... Trust me! :(
Labels: Ramblings, Reality Bites