Thursday, 8 October 2009
.:: Bitch, Moan & Whine (BMW) ::.
I'm not too sure on where to start and how to end.... Let's just say I'm in a mess... ? Juz lemme ramble a couple of stuff here to let off steam, hokay?I've seemed to lose the drive and excitement when comes to work... seriously... and I've been dragging myself to work almost every other day... My team mates are fine... But the mundane feeling has set in too deep. I'm demoralised by work etiquette of people whom we depend on and it has probably caused this topsy turvy feeling about work.
My passion in photography and posting photos online has gone down the drain too.... Well that's almost kaput! I did take some photos during the Hari Raya season and believe it or not, I've yet to upload them to my lappie, let alone upload online! Bringing the camera almost everywhere but never really has that excitement to snap shots like I used to.
Nowadays I feel so physically tired, emotionally battered and mentally unstable! Felt something amiss in my life at the moment... Dunno what's that though... *sigh* Could it be the long absence of pillion riding FD6S? Probably.... That bike has been gone too long from my life that it has ripped a part of me....and left me hollow and empty! FD6S, please get well soon.... I need you to make me feel sane again!
Lately, I feel so strongly that there is a Jekyll and Hyde in me... but then again, aren't those 2 characters do exist in each and every one of us? Its just a matter if Hyde's character is suppressed well enough before it takes controll over Jekyll's role fully. Personally, I feel that Jekyll and Hyde have to strike a balance in us, depending on situation and that will add more colours to our life... Don't you think so? Hmmm....
Oh ya, I did mention earlier that I'm emotionally battered... Yes and I've given up trying in whatever means to resolve my emotional turmoil.... I'm just letting it be and come what may.... I'm going with the flow and juz bring it on!.... Resistance is not in my blood.... not this one, for now... But I've sort of figured out when its time to move on.... Now is not the time... yet!
Anyway, sometimes I do wonder about myself.... Life has been treating me alright.... So far, so good, Alhamdulillah I'm thankful.... Meanwhile, I've got frens and family members who are in deeper shit than myself but yet they seemed much stronger than I do.... So why the hell am I complaining so much?
Howell... I'm only human and at times I do need to Bitch, Moan and Whine... B.M.W... Get it? Hehe...
Labels: FD6S, J n H, Ramblings
