Friday, 30 January 2009
.:: A Year Ago At... ::.
Earlier today, I was at a very familiar place. A place whereby I spent months to heal and to undergo therapy.Yes, I was at SGH. Sent Bebeh to the SNEC for a day op to remove cataract from his corneal transplant eye. Its all due to the eye drops he's taken for the past 3 years or so. Btw, he's doing well, nothing to worry about.
Sitting alone at Delifrance, sipping my cup of cuppacino and reading Stefanie Meyer's "New Moon" while waiting for Bebeh. At the same time, I can't help it as my memory floodgate was wide opened.
I can still remember on my very 1st day of arrival in SGH from Bangkok Medical Centre, almost the whole ward was crowded by our family and friends, eagerly waiting to meet me & Bebeh.
I was smiling when I recalled the day I went for surgery to remove the long metal pin from my feet and to place a titanium plate on my right arm. I woke up after the op, grumbling and whining that the dosage of morphine given to me wasn't enough compared to the ones I received in Bangkok.
For 3 weeks at SGH, I was always looking forward to Sunday's tea break as they served delicious fruit tarts. Hehe...
Of course, I'd still remember the days after surgery, I have to go for physiotheraphy everyday, just to learn how to walk all over again.
My trips to SGH were on a regular basis even after when I was discharged. I continued going there weekly for occupational theraphy, for my right hand as I had a wrist drop after the op. The therapies continued for a couple of months.
And how can I ever forget my last day of therapy when I have a surprise visit from 2 of my friends which totally caught me off guard. I almost fall off my chair when I saw them walked pass the theraphy clinic! Hahaha....
Now looking back, I realised time REALLY flies and I am very thankful that Allah has given me a second chance in life.
Alhamdulillah...
Wednesday, 28 January 2009
.:: Nothing Lasts Forever ::.
Built a wall around my heartl never let it fall apart
But strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep
If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe
Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
Labels: song
Tuesday, 27 January 2009
.:: Balik Kampung ::.
On Saturday, the extended families of Badut & Zul Big Bird went to Kuantan, our self declared kampung for a short getaway.The initial plan was to stay at Cherating but since, the organiser, Mr Big Bird did a last minute booking, all hotels & resorts in Cherating were fully book! So instead, we settled for Kuantan town itself and MS Garden Hotel had available rooms to accomodate us.
Upon checking in the late afternoon, we proceeded to Kemaman to have our favourite Sata & Otak2. We had Yem's family, who stayed at Cherating to join us for the late lunch at Kemaman too. Then we headed to a local pasar malam on our way back to Kuantan and bought durians. Looking for a place to sit and enjoy our durians, the nearby Balok beach was suggested by the durian seller. We came across Fantasia Beach Resort and had our durian session there, complete with Karaoke session, for some.
On Sunday, we let the kids have a dip in the hotel's pool while the adults enjoyed our breakfast. Later went for shopping at Berjaya Megamall which was just conveniently located nextdoor. After late lunch, headed to Kemaman again for keropok & keropok lekor shopping. Before heading back to Kuantan, we stopped by Cherating Beach for an evening stroll and reminising the past when we stayed there, about 9 years ago. We ended the night by having lepak session at the coffee shop next to our hotel serving ice blended drinks & kopi Melaka.
On the last day of stay, the kids were enjoying themselves again in the pool and adults were having breakfast by the pool again. We checked out at about 1pm and headed to Teluk Chempedak to let the kids have fun on their rented rides. On the way home, we stopped at Rompin for late lunch and had our dinner at JB. Luckily, traffic was smooth at the checkpoints as it was close to 2am.
More pics in here
Thursday, 22 January 2009
.:: Getaway & Get Well ::.
I'm a lil frustrated that I can't find Simple Plan's 'Save You' in Imeem... Chet!Btw, I'm almost done with packing for the weekend getaway... Yeah, we'll be going back to our self declared 'Kampung', which is Kuantan together with bro-in-law & some friends...hehe! Who knoes we might stop over along the coastal to check out on the 'Tree' which I've yet to find... Haha, another personal joke with someone!
And talking about that someone, its been a while I've not heard from my friend, the Professional Stalker till today. He was on MC for the past week, as somebody got injured in the course of duty, leh... When I met him & Nurul for lunch earlier today, he's happily showing me his right palm all wrapped up in some kindof 'guard' to reduce the swell...hehe! Reminds me of my days wearing a wrist guard last year. So here's wishing a speedy recovery to the Professional Stalker... Sikit je...Tak sakit kan?
I'm already in holiday mood and can't seem to focus at work lately or should I say since we shifted over haha! Yes, still bad air circulation and my productivity rate at work is going down the slum...ggrrrr! Hopefully the short getaway will help to inspire me! Ya rite!
Inspire me, please! Hehehe....
Labels: Friends, Ramblings, trip
Tuesday, 20 January 2009
.:: Cry Me A River ::.
A brief moment with you was enough to make me cry again...Your sad eyes were trying their best to comfort me but they failed to make my tears stop flowing...
Seeing you again was something I wanted to do, but I wasn't strong enough to refrain myself from cying...
But I'm glad, although it was only a short while...
Please stay strong and be brave for whatever lies ahead....
We'll be here, waiting for you...
Labels: Friends, Reality Bites
Friday, 16 January 2009
.:: Enduro Ride 08 - The Accident ::.
A year has passed and it seems only like yesterday...Click here for some of the photos taken after the accident.
Our friends decided not to post it but instead Yus compiled it for us into a CD, giving us full privacy and I've decided to post it on the 1 year anniversay of the Enduro Ride 08...
On 16 Jan 08, the accident that has changed part of my life. It happened on a late afternoon, around 4pm, Spore time...Just at the 55km mark to Thakek, Laos.
I couldn't really recall what happened but Din told us that FD6S did a somersault, after Bebeh & I were flung from it!
Fatigue took the toll and maybe its just a reason to change our lives forever. But I'm very thankful and glad that I'm still in one piece, except missing a spleen that has ruptured and some broken/cracked bones! :)
Thanks to the rest of the riders and pillions who rendered help till professional medical assistance arrived the following day to transfer us to Bangkok, Thailand.
Special thanks to Din Manager @ Din Cambodia whose vast knowledge on first aid and rescue mission was put to good use.
Not forgetting my sis-in-law, Ima @ Chomel who puts her nursing skills at test when we were at Thakek Hospital which lacks of medical facilities (prior to the transfer to Bangkok).
And here's the video taken by Ida, while we were lying by the roadside, minutes after the accident.
Labels: Accident, Enduro Ride 08, FD6S, Friends, trip
Wednesday, 14 January 2009
.:: Perserverance ::.
The mention of your name, brought tears to my eyes....Only those that are close to my heart are able to do that...
There are times that I wanted anger and hatred to fill up my heart and protect me from such hurt again....
There are times when I wanted to shun all other friendships, each time I think of you but it wouldn't be fair to others and to myself...
But no matter how hard I tried, deep inside me, my prayers are always for you...
Till we meet again and till freedom is yours...
I believe, this is a test of our friendship...
Only patience and tolerance will persevere...
Labels: Friends, Reality Bites
Monday, 12 January 2009
.:: Inspire Me Not? ::.
I.N.S.P.I.R.EThat's what I'm lack of and in need of! Haha...my rookie, is definately bawling the minute she reads this! La dida dida...
My productivity at work is almost zilch for today... I think, our new office is a very good example of a sick building....bad air circulation, no view and almost no air con! I felt suffocated!!!
Since its Monday, today, I've changed my blog song again and earlier on, I was asking a couple of friends to suggest me with some songs to consider and here's what they've come out with:-
Sara @ The CSO - A Tamil song, a retro song somemore! Another option was a song title he made up himself, "Shove The Cactus Up My Ass"...hahaha, pardon the crudeness here...there's more!
Shidah @ The Rookie - "You Are Not Alone", "Shut Up" (coz I kept asking her to inspire me the whole day), "Disturbia" (I think by now, she felt disturbed working together with me? hehe) and a couple of others which I can't seemed to recall at this moment.
Babe @ The Professional Stalker - This one was almost having the same wavelength as Sara, very ingenious and creative when coming up with song titles that never existed at all! Like for instance, "Cinta Di Belakang Ais Box Rumahmu", "Kau Boleh (Belah!)" or maybe English version, "The Man Who Can't Be Moved From The Back Of My Fridge" or maybe another song with a much shorter title, "You Can?"
Hahaha.....ya right! Monday's definately crazy for me coz I'm surrounded with crazy friends all the time!
In the end, I've decided to use "Listen" by Beyonce, an all time favourite..as my blog song for this week! I guess, I need to listen a lot...especially listen to what my heart has got to say... :)
Btw, can friendship be addictive? Coz I think I've turn into an addict for friendship which at times I felt scary! Scared of losing good friends, that is.... Somebody asked me, where's my confidence and where's my trust....I definately trust my friends but I don't have the confidence that it could last long... Anyway, let's just move on shall we?
Let time tell everything and let it heal all wounds...but first,
Inspire Me, please.... :)
Labels: Friends, Ramblings, song
Sunday, 11 January 2009
.:: First Fall ::.
Today marks 1 year anniversary of the Enduro Ride 08. I've yet to compile the vidz...as usual, procastination is definately taking place.And yes, that also means a year I've yet to ride FD6S... Time sure flies ya? *sigh* I miss riding and how many times have I mentioned that for the past year? Countless, I suppose...haha!
Guess what? Just a couple of minutes ago, I've experienced my first fall after the accident! Remember, I ever blogged that I'm worried about tripping and falling? Well, it happened! And I survived! Hehe...
I tripped over the power supply cord of my lappie...tripped on my left foot (the dislocated one, mind you!) and landed on my right arm (the broken one!)...talking about deja vu! Luckily, nothing serious, except for my ankle, butt & arm hurts a bit! blearghh!
What a way to celebrate 1 year anniversary, huh?
Labels: Enduro Ride 08, Ramblings
Friday, 9 January 2009
.:: Quote ::.
"The worst part about Friday was that, even though I knew he wasn’t going to be there, I still hoped."Thursday, 8 January 2009
.:: Impromptu Entry ::.
I've got a feeling that this is gonna be a messy entry... I'm juz gonna ramble whatever comes into mind...no planning, purely impromptu!There's a couple of things on my mind which I need to blog about...like I'm feeling a bit restless...dunno why... Could it be that the 1yr anniversary of the Enduro Ride is around the corner? Wow! 1 year gone... that's pretty fast... Don't get mistaken, there'll be no party ya... Only that I've got the urge to come up with a compilation of some of the videos taken to commemorate the Ride...hehe! Yeah, the unfinished ride... Macam real aje! Hehe.. We'll see how, seems procastinating about doing the vidz.... Betul nye semangat 2 minit sey!
Hokay, next in mind...let's talk about work...my Unit Head's plan for 2009, more in store for my team...meaning, more site visits, more spot checks especially in the evenings...which equals to more time off?! So should I feel glad or should I fret? A mixture of feelings, I should say....when the time comes, we'll see how things go from there, ya...
In regards to my last entry, when I blogged about preventing any friends from being a part of my life... I can't seem to do it... Bak pepatah lyrics from Flop Poppy's 'Masih',
"Kau yang masih di hati... Tidak terdaya... Untuk mengundur diri..." hehehe....
I guess, being a sucker for friendship, I can't bring myself to be distant from any friends...
Furthermore, there's always this one in particular a.k.a the 'professional stalker' who's hard to get rid off! No matter how hard I try... Ooops..hehe! But seriously, at times when I'm down, I need friends like this one to keep me going and continue to have faith in friendship...
"I will never let you fall.
I'll stand up with you forever"
~Your Guardian Angel~
"You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely"
~Always Be My Baby~
Btw, what's with Flop Poppy songs and Babe? Hehe...its a private joke with someone...
Labels: Enduro Ride 08, Friends, Ramblings, song, Work
Monday, 5 January 2009
.:: Time ::.
The house is quiet, with Bebeh out for his night class and Ilyas is fast asleep...I've never felt lonelier....
Only the songs from my playlist are entertaining and accompanying me at the moment...
Still thinking about the events that happened earlier today....
We just have to move on, I guess....
Time will heal all wounds and only time will tell....
Will it? I dunno...
In years to come, we'll still be here, my friend....
I hope...
On a seperate note, after what has happened, I just got this strong urge to refrain myself from being close and comfy with any friends coz I just dunno why that it hurts.... Seriously it hurts.... and I'm not so sure whether time will really able to heal all wounds.... I doubt so...
I seem to recall past friendships which come and go...friends who were there for me and gone after everything's okay....or should I say moved on, rather than gone....
I hate picking up the broken pieces while reminising the past.... Gosh! Wtf am I rambling here? See? I can't even get a grip of myself.... So isn't it simpler to just stay focus with family and DRAW a clear line with friends? Lesser headaches and heartaches for me coz I'm too emotional and I think too highly of friendship, especially when a strong bond has been established.....and if anything happens to friendship, I'm the one who got hurt, I'm the one who gotto pick up broken pieces of my life.... I don't want to go through it again!
Can I prevent any friends from being a part of my life for the time being? Don't need you to be there for me...just let me handle myself... Can? On the other hand, can I survive without having any friends around me?
I dunno.... Just gimme some time, hokay?
p.s - There's no other song that suits my current mood perfectly other than this song, 'Sahabat' by Aizat.... Irony isn't it? I mean, my mood and what I've just blogged about.... *sigh*
Labels: Friends, Reality Bites, song
Sunday, 4 January 2009
.:: Twilight ::.
I'm feeling kinda frustrated.... with myself, that is.... hmmph!I'm suppose to have that so-called Pentium 4 memory power but I can't seem to recall something...
Its actually a quote or part of the dialogue from the movie "Twilight" when I watched it on New Year's Eve....
I remembered, when it (the quote) was mentioned in the movie, I was telling myself that it was a lovely quote and now it seems to bother me for not able to recall the exact words!
Oh Bummer! But does that means I get to watch the movie again? Hehe...
Btw, waiting for Bebeh to collect the book for me....
A lot of people were saying that the book is so much better than the movie... *mcm pernah dengar, eh?*
Labels: Movies
Saturday, 3 January 2009
.:: Ilyas' 1st Day Of School ::.
Yesterday was Ilyas' first day of school in Primary One. He's in West View Primary School. It was the first time the school has arranged for Parents' involvement throughout the whole PM session on the first day of school.
On the whole, Ilyas was okay except during recess time when he's on panic mode and turned teary when he couldn't find me. I was on the other hand, at the bookshop buying a few of his books which were only available when shool re-opens.
Here are some of the pics taken on Ilyas' first day of school... Enjoy...
All geared up for school...
Excited parents and nervous children in a school hall...
Ilyas settled down and its reading time...
Since he's one of the tallest, he gets to hold his class sign...
Entering their classroom, for the first time...
Teacher reading out the big book to her students....
Getting ready for recess time...
His buddy from Pri 3, Jeriah...
Labels: Ilyas
Thursday, 1 January 2009
.:: 2009 ::.
Happy New Year, peeps! I wasn't at any countdown party last night but instead together with Zac's family, we had dinner at Rezki.... Sounded pretty boring, huh? hehe... Takpe yg penting kitorang happy...Looking back at 2008, many things happened, be it happy or sad but I'm just glad that I'm still given a chance to be in one piece (although not so complete coz missing a spleen, hehe!) and breathing fresh air. Alhamdulillah....Nothing else matters... Like I've always believed, things always happened for a reason...
Like any other New Year, there's no new year's resolution for me, afraid of disappointment and knowing the fact that I'm a procastinator, I'd rather skip with resolutions and stuff...hehe! All I hope for is that 2009 will be a better year for all of us, although recession is on the way...
Labels: Ramblings