Sunday, 23 January 2011
.:: Contentment ::.
I've been staring at this empty screen for the past 5 minutes or so, thinking hard on how to express my thoughts in writing. When before this, my head was full of ideas and wanting much to blog. Irony, huh? Or maybe its just pure mental block! Pfft!Anyway, just let me ramble a lil bit without any order of prority. I'm gonna just type whatever comes into mind first. So bear with me ya...
Lately, been thingking much about stuff which has been happening around me. Seems life has its own twists and turns. Full of ironies and surprises. At times, the feeling is worse than an adrenalin rush when one is taking a roller coaster ride. I learn not to assume or anticipate too much on things which has been happening lately. Not worth having a heart attack over such matters! hehe!
The other night, Bebeh and I were talking in the car with Ilyas sleeping soundly at the backseat. He was saying that some people or their spouses were lucky to have each other but yet contentment is hard to pursue. Personally, I feel that nowadays, not many have contentment. One is never enough and there's always more, bigger, better, richer and the list goes on. If we gonna let such thoughts rule our heads too much, one day we'll die without even knowing the feeling of satisfaction!
I told him that we are lucky to have each other as our life partner and he agreed. I'm not saying we are leading a perfect life or a divine marriage. Of course we do have our own sets of weakness and dirty linens but I guess, we managed to compromise our flaws with our strengths as husband and wife. We managed to learn the art of balancing & juggling on the marriage scale. And I hope, we are able to perfect the art just like how my parents and grandparents did.
Slightly than a decade ago, I recalled someone close asking me if I'd ever imagine living my life with someone else rather than with Bebeh. That question was posed to me when I was teary-eyed and feeling if I was going to do the right thing of marrying Bebeh. Even at my state of pre-wedding blues, with confusion in my mind, I managed to tell my friend that I could never imagine waking up every morning without having Bebeh by my side. Another person filling his shoes is totally something I cannot envision.
Now, 11 years later, I'm still having the same thoughts. It was definitely something I did not look back and no regrets earn in marrying the man I love. For better or for worse... In sickness or in health, this is what I want till the day I'm six feet under.
Insya Allah.
Friday, 14 January 2011
.:: Those Were The Days... ::.
I miss those days when we were united as 1. 1 passion, 1 interest & 1 common goal which was adventure touring...I miss having to laugh out loud on our crazy antics and wacky stuff which we would do, no matter how much distance we need to cover & how much sweat we have drenched!
Those moments were beyond friendship but more of 'water running thicker than blood'! And that was just months back.
And now? We are divided and we need to choose... Not fair for some of us... Not fair for me, especially!
I was just browsing photos of our 3NCR. We had a hell of a good time and we rock each other's world... and now? Its just a vivid memory of my past and how I wish I could turn back time and make things good or prevent things from going ugly!
I guess, let time heal everyone's wounds. It will not be the same again and that's sad, to me...
:(
Labels: Friends, Reality Bites
Tuesday, 4 January 2011
.:: Busted My Dislocated Ankle! ::.
Did my routine inspections last night when I busted my dislocated ankle! I was busy taking photos and trying to rush some cases for the night when the painful experience happened.Took a step back to give way to a pair of roving eyes watching my movements, pretty close by. A miscalculated step caused me to land on my dislocated foot unprepared... Managed to gather the remaining energy and was determined to complete 2 other cases nearby before limping back to Su Frosty (my car).
There goes my inspections after 11pm, too painful to even limp and let alone walk. Bebeh & Ilyas fetched me from our carpark. Bebeh suggested SGH's A&E while my solution in fixing a busted ankle was synflex (strong painkiller which I always have with me).
Woke up this morning still limping and visited our family doctor. Gave me 2 days of rest and more synflex pills to pop. Hope I'll be fine by Thursday to return back to office.
What a way to start working on a brand new year? Haha!
Sunday, 2 January 2011
.:: Game Of Life ::.
My first entry in 2011 and its not gonna sound that ecstatic at all to usher the brand new year...Our friends been facing life's challenges, one by one... This what I call the Game Of Life. Some people will win the rat race while others will falter and surrender to defeat...
Its depressing to watch those close to us are being tested but yet almost failing to survive the challenge... Life is so cruel and unfair at times but I'm sure God has greater plans for all of us.
People change and how many times we've heard that? Even we have gone through that... All of us go through changes in our life... but some are so abrupt that others need time to let reality sink in!
Changes change people... don't you think so? I do! Change one's attitude, change one's perspective, change one's goal in life... and changes made people forget, forget where they belong and forget where they come from!
When emotions rule too much of the heart, the head gets too cloudy and some get too big-headed!
Its heart-breaking when crisis is all over me and I can't do much... But on the other hand, I'd rather not, cause being too involved, will get me totally misunderstood. Learnt my lesson well... Been there, done that!
Well, I'm just praying for the better for our friends out there. May they see the light at the end of the tunnel... This is another offroad journey in their lives... may they ride the highway of life again!
Good luck my friends... May the force be with you!
Labels: Friends, Ramblings, Reality Bites