Monday, 31 August 2009
.:: Belated Bash ::.
I was car-less today and Bebeh sent me to work. Only to reach the office almost 15 minutes late! The minute I stepped into my office, I saw this at my workstation...
My workstation was decorated and a big present awaits..... Knowing that my friends and colleagues were up to something...
See! Even right up to my PC monitor was decorated....
I was then asked to unwrapped the big prezzie....hmmm.... They couldn 't have gotten me a mini fridge or a vacuum cleaner or have they?
I was unwrapping layers and layers and layers of newspaper, trying to unveil the mystery gift.... But judging by the size, the mystery gift seemed familiar.... By then, my mind was made up that my friends were definitely up to something.... 
And I was right to discover that they have wrapped up the office side cabinet and filled the drawers with gifts! Hahaha.... I felt like it was Christmas rather than my birthday....and was touched by the efforts they've gone through to surprise me! 
How can I not get jittery when almost everyone was watching me unwrapping the gifts and having cameras paparazzi-ing at me? 
And just look at the tonnes of rubbish I've made out of unwrapping the gifts! 
One of the many gifts I received....hehe! *Winkz at Bebeh*
After a year, my BMW GS has finally got a company from a Suzuki Hayabusa, the exact same replica Bebeh used to ride years ago....
This very gift...*ehem ehem*...made me blush a lil but its my recent fetish... boxer shorts!
Not enough of wrapping the side cabinet, they even made me pose and wrap myself with the 'Happy Birthday' banner.... My Gawd, see how 'creative' my frens can be?
And here's not the complete pic of the whole group who is responsible of making my day today, although my birthday was like 2 days ago! The other half of the group were either rushing for course, on leave or serving customer at the counter....To all my family and friends and even acquaintances who remembered....
Thank you for your gifts, well wishes and your prayers....
Sincerely from,
Wednesday, 26 August 2009
.:: Paranoid Or Ignored? ::.
I was like reading back some of my old entries....and I find that I tend to get extra emotional especially when Ramadan comes....I really wonder why... Could it be due to the month of abstinence and the lack of food intake? I get depressed easily. And motivation was nowhere near me.
The past few days, I was dragging myself out of bed with a heavy tug in my heart. I just don't feel like going to work. I lost my drive. I just felt like staying in bed and cocooned myself at my very own confort zone.
At work, B was like forever having to listen to my whinings and whinings and more whinings! haha.... Poor guy! Well, I need someone to express my inner feelings....
Why is that so? Cos something else is bothering me and its affecting me like it or not.... but its not appropriate for me to elaborate here.... and being me, very very difficult to express when I can only listen....
And one more thing, someone seems pretty quiet nowadays....Have I done something wrong? Have I? Am I juz being paranoid or am I being ignored? Gosh! I sound pathetic over here.....
Maybe sleep might help? So goodnight peeps.... Juz ignore me....
Labels: Ramblings
Sunday, 23 August 2009
.:: Confused Confession? ::.
I have self inflicted my emotions with lil cuts which have formed into wounds...These wounds would in turn remind me of who I am and where I stand...
For all this while I was in a dream which I love to be in, forever
But the urge of being in reality was far too strong..
That I couldn't just ignore and couldn't continue to make-believe
Black is black
And white will forever be white....
I have given up standing in the limelight of the grey portion
All these while, I was so worried about having to see the bridge and crossing it.
Well, I did see it and crossed it... but I didn't reach the other end...
I made a U-turn when I was at the centre of it...
My own ambiguity has been answered by my own reaction...
Love was the answer...
And definitely not lust!
Labels: Ramblings
Thursday, 20 August 2009
.:: Bencinta ::.
Benarkan ku 'tuk berbicara...Bicara terus ke hati mu... Hati mu...
Hati yang penuh rasa ragu
Jangan terus pergi
Tanpa mendengar ku
Mungkin mudah
Untuk kau terus berlalu
Nanti dulu
Berikanlah waktu
Untuk aku, untuk kamu
Ingatkah lagi waktu kau bersama ku
Kaku aku melihat mu
Lidah kelu sedangkan aku
Mahu kau tahu
Aku cinta pada mu
Benci pada mu
Cinta pada mu
Ke tepi lihat ku berlalu
Pasti itu yang terbaik untuk ku
Tiada lagi mahu ku tahu
Tentang hidup kamu
Tentang mati kamu
Aku tahu
Engkau tahu apa yang mata ku tahu
Apa yang kau tunggu
Mahu aku buka pintu?
Ingatkah lagi waktu kau bersama ku
Kaku aku melihat mu
Sedang aku mahu kau tahu
Dengar kata ku
Aku cinta pada mu
Benci pada mu
Cinta pada mu
Sakitnya aku
Membenci kamu
Sakit lagi mencintai mu
Dan aku pergi
Tapi kembali
Benci aku mencintai diri mu
Ku benci... Kamu
Ku cinta... Kamu
~Faizal Tahir~
Labels: song
Monday, 17 August 2009
.:: Miss ::.
I Miss You!If only you know....
:(
Labels: Ramblings
Thursday, 13 August 2009
.:: Eh Eh (Nothing Else I Can Say) ::.
Such a simple and catchy song... but yet...And eh, there's nothing else I can say
Eh eh, eh eh
There's nothing else I can say
Eh eh, eh eh
I wish you'd never looked at me that way
Eh eh, eh eh
There's nothing else I can say
Eh eh, eh eh
Not that I don't care about you
Just that things got so complicated
Eh eh
Labels: song
Monday, 10 August 2009
.:: Stop & Move On ::.
Moving on isn't that easy huh? Lotsa heartache and tears in going thru the process... Challenges in the emotional aspect is much tougher to go thru, I guess...I haven't even started (in moving on) and let alone stop (a process prior to moving on)? But for now, I have to be there for a dear friend. She needs me and I know that one day I'll need her too when my time comes...
There are many occasions I wanna stop and move on but there's always something stopping me from doing so... Maybe the time has come for me to consider and really do it?
That is to stop and move on...
But then again, can I?
.:: Ladies' Retreat ::.
Together with some friends, went to Batam for a nite stay.Complete with shopping, spa and doing the girly stuff.
This is our first time organising such trip and definitely not gonna be the last...
The rest of the pics in Multiply & FB... Self service pls, peeps...
:)
Wednesday, 5 August 2009
.:: Ditch-ed! ::.
Yes! I was DITCH-EDI would have my head spared if it was a bet on the chopping board!
Ok bye!
:(
Labels: Ramblings
Tuesday, 4 August 2009
.:: Ditch ::.
To ditch or will be ditched? Lets just wait and see.....Someone was delusional when the deal was sealed....
For now, nobody dares to bet with me coz I win most of the time...
*preparing to play with bubbles again*
:)
Labels: Ramblings