Friday, 10 July 2009
.:: Emo Me... ::.
It all started on Wednesday night when I was watching the repeat telecast of MJ's Memorial Service...I got so emotional watching his family and friends having to say goodbye to the King of Pop in front of million viewers...
Made me realised how short lived our lives are....
Gone too soon.... RIP, MJ...
Then yesterday, in office, practically dragged myself to work and not forgetting an early morning whining session to Bebeh.... lacking of sleep n all... my emotions weren't steady...
Only to discover in the morning that I need to assist my officer to do some input into a database...that took me three quarter of the day... I suddenly felt like the most highest paid data entry clerk around....
With that, added another blow to my emotions and it didn't stop there...
Friends around me saw dark clouds circling on top of my head and they were nice, trying to cheer me up like talking, buying chocolates and bubble tea... I'm thankful that I have them around although didn't help much.... I kept quiet most of the time and sitting at my workstation with jacket and hood on....Office was cold but I was even colder to others yesterday. I was like having that imaginary sign on top of my head saying "Do not disturb or I'll BARK!"...hehe!
My mind was partially focus in doing the data entry while the other half was else where...dunno where...maybe was in Timbaktu! My heart was empty and hollow for the day...occasionally, grabbing tissue and dabbing my eyes...which I can't explain why I was totally emo yesterday...
PMS? I seriously dunno....Mixtures of emotions again? Probably...
I was like trying to get a grip of my emotions... Seeing a lil past of my life being played in right in front of my eyes, having to know how the outcome will be.
At times my mind wandering and missing people who are close to me.... missing doing things which made me feel alive and carefree! Felt like I was deprived... deprived of my passion and thats riding.... I miss FD6S, I miss riding against the wind and I miss feeling of adrenalin rush!
God has probably sent an SOS signal to Bebeh and when he called in the late afternoon, I suddenly feel so much better. As usual, his aura calms me down and he doesn't even know I was on an emotional roller coaster ride, the whole day...
By the end of the day, I was slightly in control and felt better.... Thank God!
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