Thursday, 30 July 2009
.:: My Quote... ::.
Absence makes the heart grow stronger...
And distance makes the mind become clearer...
~hayabusa_b@be~
And distance makes the mind become clearer...
~hayabusa_b@be~
Labels: quotes
Monday, 27 July 2009
.:: Unlicensed Shrink's Cranky Day ::.
Here I am...staring into this lil space and thinking what to blog about... There's stuff I wanna blog about but can't seem to start...or dunno where to start...Gosh! I'm experiencing mental block again.... Pfft!
Things happen recently when I'm just watching and listening....but it seems certain things happen and gave me a deja vu feeling....
Sometimes watching or listening to people and their problems, made me go ...
"Hmmm.... its similar to my situation" or
"Hmmm... Mine is worst than that...So just face it and move on will ya!" or even
"Hmmm....Your prob is way too heavy for me to deal with... I'm sorry for what you've gone thru but I'm always here to give you moral support....Things won't work out if you don't start talking things out!" or
"Hmmm... What's the problem, again? Is there a problem on the 1st place?" hehe....
Well, I have my own sets of problem too? I may be the unlicensed 'shrink' amongst my friends but I'm human too... Duh! One of my major problem is that I listen too much that I'm having problems in expressing.....
I'm a good listener... At least I think so... But I'm crap at sharing or expressing my problems with others... And the impact is that most of my problems are buried deep within my heart.... At times I'll let off steam in here (my blog) but most of the time its in lingos which only myself and very few knew....
Hey, don't get me wrong, especially my frens who are reading this entry... I'm always honoured that friends trust me and share with me and get opinions from me on their problems.... Sometimes knowing too much stuff brings my positivity down too.... and at times, ignorance is a pure bliss, trust me!
I still love each and every one of you who shares with me stuff.... its only that maybe, today is Monday and I'm a lil cranky? hehe... Hey, like I've mentioned earlier, I'm only human and today is just one of those days I whine a lil?
The unlicensed shrink will be back tomorrow...
:)
Labels: Ramblings
Sunday, 19 July 2009
.:: Breaking Dawn ::.
"You're supposed to be part of my life - I can feel that, and so can you""But not like this. We did something wrong. No. I did. I did something wrong, and we got off track ..."
~Bella Swan~
Thursday, 16 July 2009
.:: Ilyas Turns 7 ::.
My lil hunk turns 7 today!He wanted goldfish as a present and we got him that. My parents came over and we had pizza for dinner.
Happy birthday Ilyas...
May you have a blissful life ahead filled with good health and an abundance of joy...
May you be in the guidance of Allah always and we love you very very much!
It seems like yesterday I craddled you in my arms, darling...
Please don't grow up too fast, Ibu got a dislocated ankle, remember?
I may not be able to catch up...
Labels: Birthday, family, Ilyas
Wednesday, 15 July 2009
.:: Emotional Detachment ::.
How do you emotionally detach from someone when that person has become a part of you? I'm emotionally attached to friends and let alone family members...I can't detach emotionally from them but some people can...And I wonder how.... Maybe the heart is made of steel or emotions are greatly concealed under a facade...
People say, time will heal all wounds and make us move on.... Is that true? Can I move on and leave all memories behind then? Its easier that way than to bring a baggage of memories along... Having amnesia would be an even better solution rather than letting time to heal...rite? If I decided to move on without you, will you remember me the way I am or will you hate me for who I am?
Someone told me, we live only once and therefore, live life to the fullest. No point crying over spilt milk...What is done can never be undone... Correct, I agree with that... but I also believed in learning from mistakes and never to allow it to happen again...or happen over and over again...
I'm like blogging in circles... Do I make sense, here? Haha... Hokay.. I shall sleep for now and let the rest of the world to continue ignoring me....
Labels: Ramblings
Sunday, 12 July 2009
.:: I Love You Till The End ::.
Here I am, watching "P.S I Love You" showing at Star Movies. I got so hooked with one of the movie soundtrack, "I Love You Till The End" by The Pogues and decided to let it be the song for my blog.I've watched the movie before and watching it again still give me the goosebumps, if you know what I mean....
Love is such and intriguing feeling...
You want to feel it but at times you just hate the feeling of it?
And there are moments you just have this love-hate relationship with the feeling of LOVE itself... Don't you think so?
Well, I think so...
'I'm lost for words
Don't tell me...
All I can say
I love you till the end...'
Labels: Movies, Ramblings, song
Friday, 10 July 2009
.:: Emo Me... ::.
It all started on Wednesday night when I was watching the repeat telecast of MJ's Memorial Service...I got so emotional watching his family and friends having to say goodbye to the King of Pop in front of million viewers...
Made me realised how short lived our lives are....
Gone too soon.... RIP, MJ...
Then yesterday, in office, practically dragged myself to work and not forgetting an early morning whining session to Bebeh.... lacking of sleep n all... my emotions weren't steady...
Only to discover in the morning that I need to assist my officer to do some input into a database...that took me three quarter of the day... I suddenly felt like the most highest paid data entry clerk around....
With that, added another blow to my emotions and it didn't stop there...
Friends around me saw dark clouds circling on top of my head and they were nice, trying to cheer me up like talking, buying chocolates and bubble tea... I'm thankful that I have them around although didn't help much.... I kept quiet most of the time and sitting at my workstation with jacket and hood on....Office was cold but I was even colder to others yesterday. I was like having that imaginary sign on top of my head saying "Do not disturb or I'll BARK!"...hehe!
My mind was partially focus in doing the data entry while the other half was else where...dunno where...maybe was in Timbaktu! My heart was empty and hollow for the day...occasionally, grabbing tissue and dabbing my eyes...which I can't explain why I was totally emo yesterday...
PMS? I seriously dunno....Mixtures of emotions again? Probably...
I was like trying to get a grip of my emotions... Seeing a lil past of my life being played in right in front of my eyes, having to know how the outcome will be.
At times my mind wandering and missing people who are close to me.... missing doing things which made me feel alive and carefree! Felt like I was deprived... deprived of my passion and thats riding.... I miss FD6S, I miss riding against the wind and I miss feeling of adrenalin rush!
God has probably sent an SOS signal to Bebeh and when he called in the late afternoon, I suddenly feel so much better. As usual, his aura calms me down and he doesn't even know I was on an emotional roller coaster ride, the whole day...
By the end of the day, I was slightly in control and felt better.... Thank God!
Labels: Ramblings
Saturday, 4 July 2009
.:: Dumb Numb Bronze ::.
Its been a while...I think I'm feeling numb, not dumb eh!
Good... keep it up, Babe!
Road to emotional recovery...
So far so good, things are fine and dandy...
I loike!
Me @
:)
Labels: Ramblings