Friday, 3 March 2006
.:: Exhausted & .... ::.
Exhaustion is starting to creep into my life..... I'm mentally & physically tired with the running around fr work to hospital, busy with work, bebeh not getting any better, I'm not spending proper time with my son & my bro's wedding is just a week away!This afternoon, Dr Chan was explaining to bebeh that although the scarring is in process, his cornea is thinning & MAY need a corneal transplant! She will only be able to let him know tomorrow! Oh my God, i need the strength.....the strength to be there for him......Pls God, help me.....The agony of waiting is torcherous!
I know bebeh was depressed with the news and was trying to encourage him.....told him to be strong and pray that everything is gonna be ok....if transplant is required, then he just have to go thru it.....told him that ini semua ada hikmahnya.....
Maybe our lives have been too smooth sailing & too blissful recently that Allah decides to give us a test of our endurance.....I've always believed that when we are chosen to be tested by Allah, He knew & have faith that we will succeed ......Usaha & kesabaran adalah kunci kejayaan ujian yg diberiNya....Insya Allah!
The only plus point ever since bebeh was warded was that, I lost 2kg in a week (still can afford to loose more...)!!! Other than that..... *sigh* Gawd, i need to be strong.....I miss bebeh, I miss spending quality time with Ilyas as this whole week was just a routine of fetching him after visiting bebeh .....
I think I need to sleep......I need to rest.....breathe, Yani...breathe! Breathe in .....breathe out.....breathe in......breathe out.....
