Tuesday, 28 March 2006
.:: Bali Without Hubby ::.
Bebeh still stuck at SNEC and I've checked in.....the gate is open and going to Bali soon..... So it seems that I'm going to Bali without Hubby! :(
.:: The Day Has Come.... ::.
So today I'll be leaving for Bali in the afternoon..... my flight is around 4.30pm, packed my bag and as promised, its only ONE haversack bag I'm bringing and its a heavy one, mind u!Bebeh's gonna go for his eye check up in the afternoon too..... I've asked him to try his luck by asking Prof if he's able to travel with us to Bali and we'll be waiting for him if he gets the green light!
Frankly speaking, deep in me, Prof won't let him go but there's no harm trying, rite? Hopefully, I'll get to blog for a while in the airport before I fly off, just to update if bebeh can follow...... *fingers crossed*
Monday, 27 March 2006
.:: A Wedding & An Accident ::.
CONGRATZ to Emilia & Aduka!!!
Attended my cuzzin's wedding over the weekend and as expected, its a grand occasion.....
So at last, my dear cuzzin is happily married and click here for more pics.....
So at last, my dear cuzzin is happily married and click here for more pics.....
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We received news on last Fri that one of bebeh's sec sch mate, Wati met with an accident..... It was a motorbike accident....due to a flat tyre, both her hubby and her were flung fr the bike when he braked to slow down......We went to visit her at NUH only on Sunday and she was still in the ICU....
She had to undergo a surgery to remove the blood clot in her brain and doctors have to remove part of her skull (permanently)......we were told that once the swelling have gone down, drs will design a metal plate to cover her open skull!
I was shocked to see her in ICU coz her head has swelled up twice the size!!! Subhanallah.....Luckily, the operation was a success and she has responded well to the dr's simple instructions (e.g to grip her hand, lift up her hands and feet).....Her eyes were swollen and remained closed due to the accident & medications.... however, she knew and acknowledged us when we spoke to her.....
Alhamdullilah, for today the latest development we heard was she has been transferred out fr the ICU and in the normal ward.....Bebeh and I will pray for her speedy recovery and hopefully, her hubby will stay strong to continue giving her emotional support.....
Her accident has somehow made me realised 2 things.....One, Allah can anytime take away one's blessings in life within spilt seconds, like this accident.....Two, these few weeks bebeh and I thought we were having a big problem with bebeh's corneal transplant saga but its not even comparable to the test which Allah is currently giving Wati and her family......
Therefore, we should be even thankful and feel blessful that there are other people who are experiencing greater challenges in life compared to us.....
Friday, 24 March 2006
.:: Busy ::.
BUSY! Yes, I'm swamped with work.....so many things to do yet so little time to finish them before I fly off to Bali..... blardy hell!!!But what de heck! I don't give a damn!....I'll prioritise and the rest can wait till I'm back again.....
This morning, my boss was whispering (and looking around to ensure that my covering officer wasn't around) to me to sms him if each time I go for MC (yesterday I was on MC and one of my colleagues have emailed to my team about my MC) coz he was having a hell of a time to get my so called permanent covering officer to cover my duties.....its so of her....Anyway, yet to hear the details fr another colleague of mine....
But....what de heck, when I'm not around be it on leave, MC or on course, just leave my worries at work and let my boss handle them! hahaha.....coz always kena fr him that way, so let him have a taste of his own medicine! I simply don't give a damn!
Anyway, I don't think I will get to blog much over the weekend as its gonna be my cuzzin's wedding......so its gonna be a pretty busy weekend for me.....
Weekend's around the corner and Bali is just few more days to go.....I've not packed, I've not changed my 'kechings' to Rupiahs but ONE thing I've decided is that......I'm gonna juz bring the basic for me & Ilyas in ONE haversack & we'll shop like hell in Bali including a trolley bag (maybe from Quicksilver, Ripcurl or Billabong)!!!!
Yippeee.............
Wednesday, 22 March 2006
.:: Long Service Award ::.
In the afternoon, attended my company's long service award for 10 / 15 / 20 years..... how time flies and I've already been working for 10 years......Didn't take any pics coz not in a glamourous mood to do so..... feeling kind of old and outdated after working for 10 yrs! lol...
Seen some familiar faces, those who've joined the same year as me, some of them were even my poly mates..... how time flies..... *sigh*
Its been a while I've not gone up on stage to shake the hand of somebody who is important, so feeling a bit jittery..... keep doing my own 'mind rehearsal' on how to shake his hand, take the card and pose for a pic, at the same time praying hard not to trip and fell in the middle of the stage with 500 pairs of eyes prying my every move at that very moment!
And guess what? Nothing silly happened to me and it all went well as 'rehearsed'.... hahaha...
Tuesday, 21 March 2006
.:: No Mood ::.
Bebeh went for his checkup today.....Prof & Dr Chan were not back yet so he was seen by another dr instead....One of his eyedrops (steroid type) the dosage was being increased ... and the dr told him that they gotto wait for a month to see if there's any cornea rejection....as for now its too soon to decide whether the transplant is recovering or failing......If it fails, he may need to undergo another transplant procedure.....
Bebeh will need to return for check up in a week's time and by then Prof will see him.....and the worst part is, his next checkup is the date I'm flying off to Bali......
Practically got no mood to go to Bali....and I'm only doing it coz bebeh wanted me and Ilyas to go and my brothers in law are depending on me to guide them there and we've already made full payments long before the cornea transplant saga began..... We can't possibly get any refund if we are to abort the trip.....
Anyway, his appointment will be abt 2hrs before we fly off and I made him promise to call me if (choi! touchwood 1st!!) he kena warded again after seeing Prof.....Worst come to worst, if that really happens I still have time to back out fr the trip......
This is the first time in my life, totally feeling not looking forward for a vacation....a full paid vacation somemore, and the poor sponsor for this trip can't even join us for the trip! *sigh*
Hai....nasib...nasib....
Monday, 20 March 2006
.:: Server Down & Bday Shoutout ::.
Today is the first time in history in the past 10 years of service with my company that our dept's server was down practically for the whole day!!!All of us got sicked into logging into the network and not long after that got 'kicked off'!!! And we've been doing a few cycles of restarting our PC, logging in and PC 'hang' after that....Can you imagine? THE WHOLE DAY!!!!
It was like a waste of time to go to work for today & productivity level was basically zero, kosong, zilch!! blardy hell!
Anyway, on a lighter note for today, here's my birthday shoutout to an old fren of mine......one of my close frens during secondary school.....and a fren who's always been there for even till now when we've already 'beranak pinak' hehehe....
Happy Birthday
SRIYANTI MD SALIM!
May your coming days be filled with bliss, love, health, wealth and everything nice that the world can offer you and your family! Love you loads and may u have a pleasant journey thru life.....
~hayabusa_babe~
Sunday, 19 March 2006
.:: At Home On Sunday ::.
Its been a while I have not stayed at home on Sunday......At last, I get to do it for today.....Alhamdullilah, bebeh's fever has gone down last night......we have been receiving visitors since morning and the last batch of visitors has just left...
Looking back for the past 3 weeks bebeh was hospitalised, Ilyas has grown up so much.....not only physically (at last, he's putting on a bit of weight) but also he has stop wearing diapers at night and he has begun sitting on the toilet bowl when he wanted to do his 'big business'.....
Maybe due to the absence of his Abah, my son knew how to be independent and didn't want to trouble his Ibu anymore.....
Saturday, 18 March 2006
.:: Saturday Night Fever ::.
Bebeh's been resting and he seems to be developing fever at the moment....I'm kindof worried....However, he told me that his eye is not in any kind of pain.....Thank God for that!The only pain was from his foot which is due to a sickness called 'Gout' whereby level of the uric acid in his body is high.....Normally get this when he eats a lot of meat and high protein food like lentils, nuts, soya bean....
I've given him panadol to sustain the pain and we'll see how it goes from there.....hopefully, nothing serious...
Friday, 17 March 2006
.:: New Layout ::.
My first new layout.....did some amendments on the original one & taa daa.......Took me 6 mths to change to another layout! I'm practically 'crawling' with my skills in the blogger world.....but better crawl rather than paralysed, rite?
.:: Discharged At Last! ::.
This morning I was dragging myself to work....thinking how long can I last going to sgh after work everyday, without fail....not knowing when my bebeh can be discharged, plus the not so good news the dr gave him yesterday......SMS him asking abt his condition and was glad to know that one of the consultants, covering for Prof (who's attending a conference with Dr Chan in San Francisco) told him that the swelling of his cornea has subside and he can go home to recuperate!
Yippee!! At last my bebeh can go home.....but still the rd to recovery isn't smooth at all coz bebeh's vision is still quite poor......so took half day leave & fetch bebeh at sgh......he gotto go back to SNEC on Tuesday for a follow up check up......
At least one hurdle is crossed.....he's back at home, resting with a month long MC.....now we are taking one step at a time......Next, is to get his eye sight better....Insya Allah
Thanks to all frens and relatives who without failed have come to visit him, sms us, call us or even those who read my blog and given words of encouragement......Thank you, once again.....
Thursday, 16 March 2006
.:: Possibility Of.... ::.
My son is sleepy and getting crankier by the minute.....so I'm gonna make this entry short....Bebeh is held up again in the hospital.......NO he's not going to be discharged anytime soon as this morning the ward dr checked his corneal was still swollen and his vision is not getting any better.....Dr said that he's healing is very slow.....
So what possibility could those signs be???? It could be a CORNEAL TRANSPLANT REJECTION!!! We are praying hard that its not a rejection but bebeh just can't help feeling it so...
I've been encouraging bebeh to be strong and patient as this is a test from Allah.....We need to be strong.....I need to be strong.....but frankly speaking.....I'm slowly crumbling.....
Monday, 13 March 2006
.:: Wedding ::.
At last the wedding is over....and everything went smoothly .... Alhamdullilah....
The minor hick up was only the bridal table was without decoration and after my bro's akad nikah, went to Jurong Point with Ciko & Cik Mini to purchase a bouquet of fresh flowers.....
During the wedding, I shed some silent tears of joy and sadness.....tears of joy to see my brother getting married with a great woman....somebody not only he loves but will be loved fondly by our family too....
There was also sadness in me when friends and relatives asked about my bebeh......all of them missed him as most of the time, he would be most kecohrable person in such joyous occasion.....Hopefully by the time my cuzzin's wedding in 2 weeks' time, he'll be able to be reunited with the rest of my family.....
For more pics of my bro's wedding pls click here
Thursday, 9 March 2006
.:: Mixture Of Feelings ::.
Bebeh has confirmed that he won't be discharged over the weekend as the drs would want to monitor him further......Today his vision was getting blur and wasn't as good as yesterday....Prof Tan was explaining that it could be due to one of the eye drops which was toxic.....so they reduced the amt of that eye drop....Seems that his road to recovery isn't gonna be smooth at all....
Tomorrow onwards I'll be busy between doing last minute preparations for my bro's wedding and going to the hospital to visit bebeh....Its gonna be a long tiring weekend.....so do expect less of me in this blog....
Its a mixture of feeling......happy that its my bro's wedding and sad that bebeh still stuck at hospital.....and it's not the same without him around....and its not gonna be as meriah without him around.....and its gonna be quieter without him around in such joyous occasion.... :(
I miss my bebeh....
Wednesday, 8 March 2006
.:: Road To Recovery ::.
Bebeh's on the road to recovery, insya Allah.....The drs are monitoring him and if everything goes well, he can be discharged in a few days' time...Crossing my fingers for him to be discharged before my bro's wedding but at the same time, I'm mentally prepared that its not gonna happen....
Yesterday, Prof Tan who performed the surgery, told bebeh that last minute during surgery, the old cornea burst and he was confident that all the fungal has been removed....However, the drs are being extra vigilant coz they are afraid that the fungal may be back in a few weeks' time.....but they are prepared to help bebeh out if that happens.....
My son is kindof cranky at the moment.....wanted to take his shower and standing stark naked next to me, waiting for me to end using the internet....so me gtg....ending my entry for now....
Monday, 6 March 2006
.:: Operation ::.
Visited bebeh in the afternoon & he seemed restless....feeling nervous abt the operation.....As for myself, my mind was not in a proper state of its own.....very jittery through out the whole day......
Went to hospital again after work & he wasn't back from the operation theatre .....went to the foodcourt for dinner with Nizam & Norliah.....
When we went up, he was already back, in a groggy state of mind.....still complaining of pain and hunger (didn't had anything since last midnight)....
Generally, he looked ok to me, presumably the surgery went well....will find out more from him tomorrow......currently, very exhausted & i need to catch up on some sleep....
Btw, thanks to all the well wishes fr friends & relatives......Insya Allah, everything is going to be fine......here's a pic of my bebeh after the op....
Sunday, 5 March 2006
.:: While Waiting.... ::.
Yesterday, they took bebeh's blood for tests and chest x-ray.....all these are the preparations before the surgery....
One of the drs came in the evening to check on his eye.....he was quite worried as its quite thinning and wanted the Professor (who's going to performthe surgery on bebeh) to take a look early this morning......
If need be, the surgery will have to be carried out today but bebeh sms me this morning and it will still be as scheduled on Mon afternoon. Prof has examined the eye and surgery can still wait........
While bebeh went for x-ray, my little devil was fiddling my hp and we decided to take some of these shots together......
One of the drs came in the evening to check on his eye.....he was quite worried as its quite thinning and wanted the Professor (who's going to performthe surgery on bebeh) to take a look early this morning......
If need be, the surgery will have to be carried out today but bebeh sms me this morning and it will still be as scheduled on Mon afternoon. Prof has examined the eye and surgery can still wait........
While bebeh went for x-ray, my little devil was fiddling my hp and we decided to take some of these shots together......
Saturday, 4 March 2006
.:: Verdict Is Out ::.
Bebeh called me in the morning and as expected he has to go for corneal transplant ....Surgery will be conducted on Monday afternoon & will take abt 1 to 2 hours.....then he still needs to be hospitalised for another 1 to 2 weeks (so there goes my bro's wedding)......and the 1st year is critical.....
The drs are closely monitoring him over the weekend.....cos if the cornea is thinning again, they may need to do the op tomorrow for some 'patch up' work before the actual surgery on Mon.....
So no more contact sports (e.g soccer, which he is starting to pick up again), no swimming and the worst part is no travelling for the next 3mths! So there goes the Bali trip, the Penang trip & even maybe the Umrah trip! Any travelling after 3mths of surgery gotto be less than a week's trip!
So far, he's taking it quite well, only frustrated abt the downhill of his life at the moment.....Been encouraging him and I can't crumble, have to be strong!
As for me, some decisions gotto be made, like whether to proceed with the Bali trip without him (he's been asking me to do so) and continue to bring his brothers there for some short getaway.....don't talk abt the $ to the trip as it would be non-refundable (i've checked!).....Need to do some adjustments for the next 3 weeks at least with him in hospital, fetching & sending Ilyas gotto do something abt it......
Friday, 3 March 2006
.:: Exhausted & .... ::.
Exhaustion is starting to creep into my life..... I'm mentally & physically tired with the running around fr work to hospital, busy with work, bebeh not getting any better, I'm not spending proper time with my son & my bro's wedding is just a week away!This afternoon, Dr Chan was explaining to bebeh that although the scarring is in process, his cornea is thinning & MAY need a corneal transplant! She will only be able to let him know tomorrow! Oh my God, i need the strength.....the strength to be there for him......Pls God, help me.....The agony of waiting is torcherous!
I know bebeh was depressed with the news and was trying to encourage him.....told him to be strong and pray that everything is gonna be ok....if transplant is required, then he just have to go thru it.....told him that ini semua ada hikmahnya.....
Maybe our lives have been too smooth sailing & too blissful recently that Allah decides to give us a test of our endurance.....I've always believed that when we are chosen to be tested by Allah, He knew & have faith that we will succeed ......Usaha & kesabaran adalah kunci kejayaan ujian yg diberiNya....Insya Allah!
The only plus point ever since bebeh was warded was that, I lost 2kg in a week (still can afford to loose more...)!!! Other than that..... *sigh* Gawd, i need to be strong.....I miss bebeh, I miss spending quality time with Ilyas as this whole week was just a routine of fetching him after visiting bebeh .....
I think I need to sleep......I need to rest.....breathe, Yani...breathe! Breathe in .....breathe out.....breathe in......breathe out.....
Wednesday, 1 March 2006
.:: Scarring In Process ::.
Bebeh's eyedrops have been reduced from hourly use to 2 hourly for 2 types and 6 hourly for the remaining 2 drops.......and the scarring has begun.....Yeah! That's great....and praying hard that he'll be discharged by next week!The whole day at work was a mad rush! When there's deadline to meet, time flies.....and never seemed enuf.....Tomorrow's another busy day I gotto go thru....
Btw, received Ilyas's pics taken last year when he was in Nursery 1.....So people, do take a good look at my handsome son!!!! Awww....it just felt like yesterday I was craddling him in my arms.....Pls darling, don't grow up too soon! Ibu simply can't catch up......
