Sunday, 23 October 2005
.:: Worried & Sorry ::.
Yesterday bought some fish to decorate our empty fish tanks and its seems to be our family tradition of buying fish each time Hari Raya is near...hehehe....Only in the evening then we managed to confirm with our old contractor about replacing our main gate....However, the sad news is that it could only be done after Hari Raya..... :(
Went to Geylang after that and we couldn't find any baju kurung that we liked!! OMG....panic is slowly creeping into me....We only got till next week to really get them!!!......Geylang was so damn crowded (or maybe its been quite sometime I've not been mingling with big crowds) and it felt like its the eve of Hari Raya...Hubby was saying that maybe it was too crowded that we can't find the baju kurung....yeah...maybe he's right....the crowd last night simply killed my mood of excitement....
I think we got to change the colour theme coz light turquoise is kindof hard to find and the light green which my hubby had 2 yrs ago is almost close to light turquoise. Hhhmmmm and now we are contemplating between light blue or black....We shall return to Geylang on Wed and hopefully we can get what we want by then....
This morning my son was testing my patience during his morning bath....and i failed the test! I just lost it and he got the beatings for me.....just because I got wet and him not listening to what I wanted him to do.....After the beatings, I felt so sorry for him....he was not crying but I knew that his shoulder was in pain after the beatings (coz his shoulder was feeling a bit warm and has red marks).....Apologised to him while changing him and I felt so bad....
I just lost it.....just like that....and I'm so disappointed with myself....where is my motherly love and where is the patience which I should have when dealing with a 3 year old kid???......Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve him.....I'm a bad mom.... :(
Tomorrow is another anxious day for me...coz in the morning I need to convince my boss to follow me visit the complainant....she's been calling me practically everyday.....I really need to get over with this case fast.....she's tormenting me...no doubt, I'm trying to help her but....she just give me the creeps....thats why i need my boss to be with me when I'm visiting her tomorrow.....I'm kindof worried and my instincts are telling me that he might not be able to make it....
Btw, came across this while blog hopping...pretty interesting...always thought that I'm more of boyish than girlish... not bad eh?...
| You Are 30% Boyish and 70% Girlish |
Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine. You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you. A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down. But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible. |
